Darker

I was 19 or twenty. I wasn’t old enough yet to drink legally, but I had a drinking problem that lead me to the threshold of blackout or better on a daily basis. I was living with my girlfriend at the time, although we spent little time together because she was a bitch. I say she was a bitch because she had a problem with my drinking, my drug use, my theft of her money, and my wanting desires in the sexual arena. I blossomed late for a guy I think. I lost my virginity at 17, and this girlfriend was only the second woman I had ever slept with. I didn’t know much about sex until I got a computer with the internet. Back in those days, everything was dial-up, but porn had been going strong for decades and I had found what I was looking for sexually, every time I clicked A.O.L. It didn’t take long before I wanted to take what I had learned on the internet into the bedroom. Needless to say, it didn’t go well. I needed to change things up. One night while I was high on crack, alcohol,...